The Basics of Ran

I had dear Kaycee over today. She was testing the progress of her allergy shots by visiting my catty house again several months after the last visit, which was before the allergy shots.

She did really well. No sniffing or wheezing. She brought her inhaler just in case, and there was no need for it. I feel like Kace is my little sister, and it was just cool to spend the afternoon hanging out being ourselves together.

We drank lots of tea (from my new tea set!) and watched Reality Bites. She'd never seen it! I tried to explain how it basically encapsulted my college experience, but a movie doesn't really do life justice.

Man, so much has changed in the nine or ten years since this movie meant so much to me.

Mostly, I felt nostalgic for the days when I was all about driving around jammin' out and smoking Camels with Katie or Josh. I missed the sense of becoming someone with new layers. I missed the sense of "you and me and five bucks, right?"

I'm happy with who I've become, but I don't want to surrender excitement about what I can still become and what I can still venture into.

I can't put into words right now what made me sad in reflecting on the past... It's like I've shed some pieces of me, and who was with me then isn't who's beside me now. That's ok. I know that. But, something feels like it's tugging at my heart in looking back...